this is a continuation of my best bj story, but actually took place before I visited the sex and video shop. I had been divorced for a number of years and while I had explored my bi side on numerous occasions, and written about it if you care to read my early stories, but I had never fully committed to a gay relationship or even considered a male male tryst. yes in the past when we fucked couples and singles there had been male on male interaction with the focus always being on the woman, I had a good reputation as a solid and reliable bull, although I hate the description ,as none of my previous swinging involved domination or cuckhold behaviors by any of the males. yes there had plenty of photographers, who wanted to keep memories of great parties, single liaisons and threesomes. I considered myself a caring sensual lover who s sole focus was to satisfy the partner and enjoy whatever game it was we were playing, double penetration , anal and having two cocks at once, . there was absolute trust and an amazing chemistry with each participant playing there role and there fantasy. don’t get me wrong it was not all plain sailing, and not always satisfying or memorable, but we never give up looking for the perfect orgasm. but maybe I have found it and to share it is to believe it, . My best orgasm .this is not a story about me fucking a man or a woman, although by time of writing I have done all of the above, but this is what leads up to that amazing feeling while experiencing untold mini orgasms and total bliss in the experience. My preparation for total surrender of my virginal ,lol ass is not quick or painless on the contrary it is tortuous and requires repeated treatments and change in lifestyle diet and personality, I must transform from alpha male to xdress heaven, . so it’s a lot of pain and shave and clean, . Multiple enemas , to start , and a deep cleaning of every hole, . A simple hot water bottle lead to so much more , heat and cold at different times , can be mind blowing , water pressure and shower heads become my best friend, . This becomes the lifestyle live eat , clean. It’s what we clean and how that is just so amazing. then let’s not forget the toys I have tried all types sizes and vibrations, but my favorite is stainless steel, plugs , butt plugs vagina plugs. the medical steel is flawless and the doctors instruments I have acquired can be used to fuck an army, but I love shopping on line, Wow so many toys but steel will always be my favorite until and then I discovered sound sets but that may be for another day and another story. The imagination runs wild , but this over stimulation of the ass and continuous stretching to accommodate larger more perverse objects into the ass has resulted in bananas, zucchini, and even an apple , being forced into my ass , and not gently , sometimes the lust is so strong after a lengthy cleaning session ,that I will use the nearest veggie or fruit as a fuck tool with margarine or petroleum jelly you can take it all, I have tried to fist myself but can’t get past widest point, I need longer arms, but I am sure I could take a real fist, as have had a female fist before, size does matter. Maybe that is a future story a full fist by a man. so now after this repeated stimulation, I am ready for the main event, ,that story too has to be fulfilled, but let’s say it goes something like this.. After a full day of cleaning and stimulation, my ass is tender and sensitive, the lips have swollen and protrude like a vagina, the use of the steel has caused a prolapse and my o ring is stretched like a well fucked, slut. Juices are running from me , clear water from an earlier enema, seeps out mixed with Vaseline and juices. I can barely sit without feeling stimulated, but there is only one thing missing, I await his arrival, we have communicated , and set up a meeting, it’s simple, I advertised for a gay or bi guy, who wanted to fuck a xdress slut, must have a thick fat cock and stamina, , and a gentleman who knows how to treat a lady. My desire is for a straight man who wants to fuck me, there is no kiss and cuddle, and it would feel even better if he paid for it, or maybe he had the whole rugby team to abuse my ass, but let’s not get carried away,,,,',','. After all I still have to live out the rest of this story, so any ideas to achieve this , love the idea or not, But I am looking &or that perfect orgasm.