The Trust Factor How it started As told in ‘That First Kiss’, we had met through social media and other online friends. Having seen her profile, I was very aware that she had listed ‘anal sex’ as one of her interests. This obviously was not a subject which I was just going to approach without careful consideration & thoughtfulness, besides which, as much as I love anal sex, & had been searching for a woman who also loved it, I also had to be sure that what she wanted was on par with what I had to offer. We discussed the anal sex with a bit trepidation & reserve over the phone. Relaying our fears & past experiences, good and bad alike. Her, as well as my biggest fear was that we did not under any circumstances want to have any kind of ‘mess’ if we decided to go ahead with it. I remember the conversation as if it were yesterday..... Angel; The worst thing that I can think of happening is that a mess happens while you are inside me. I will take my stuff and run for the hills and never EVER see you again. I will be so embarrassed if that happens. Me; Well then My Angel, I will make sure that a solution is found by which we can both be rest assured that such a thing will not happen. So leave that up to me, & just get your sexy everything to me! So it began. I knew the solution before the conversation even came about, the only thing to do was to put it into action & wait for the weekend to arrive. Pre-Solution I was to fetch her from a friend of hers house where she would leave her car. No doubt a plan for her friends to meet me & make sure that I wasn’t some weird bloke whom they would have instantly picked up on... Possibly too because I stayed a lot further than her friends did from her, & the drive was a bit daunting to her. Fine by me either way. Anything I could do to alleviate pressure, stress or insecurity from her, I would do. No matter what it took... But if she was nervous, so was I... Not about meeting her friends or anything like that. Nervous that I might fumble on presenting her with the solution. Nervous that she would be so embarrassed she might get in her car & go back home before the weekend had even begun. Nervous most of all that she might have second thoughts, and not want to go ahead with the plan. Truth be told, I was also nervous of her captivating beauty... Not just the beauty that my eyes saw every time I looked at her, but nervous because her overall beauty had already done things to me which I now know I had been hiding from for a very long time. Silly as that might sound, my own truth & fear had exposed to me in a very short space of time, & I was finding it very difficult to accept that fear & let go of past ideas & expediences. However, I somehow managed to put this aside for the moment, & fully enveloped myself in her & what she was here for. She was still a bit jumpy from the drive & needed time to settle down & relax. So we spoke some, had a coffee & just enjoyed the fact that she was indeed here, safe & almost in my arms. I had made sure that my home was befitting a visit from such an Angel of Beauty, which I hoped would make her more comfortable. Not that my home is a mess for the most part, but for this weekend, I put in some extra time to make it feel like she wanted to be there. She decided to have a shower, & of course the first thing that came into my mind was... I want to wash you, watch the soap lather your body & treat like the Queen I think you are... But I didn’t... I let her alone in the shower so she could whatever she felt she needed to do without possibly feeling the slightest bit uncomfortable with my presence. Plus, my shower is too small for two people.... While she was in there, I went to lay on the bed, naked & exposed. Fuck it, I wanted her, & I wanted her wet & beautiful & to be mine NOW! As she walked into the bedroom, seeing me there on the bed, my nakedness for her & her alone, she dropped what was in her hands & came & lay right on top of me. There’s that kiss again! That glorious mouth taking mine as if it belonged to her... Her breasts pressed down on my chest, her warm pussy radiating heat onto my thigh... GOOD GOD!!! My arms wrapped around her & drew in as close as what two bodies could possibly be. Our breathing getting heavier with each second. Rolling her over onto her back, positioning myself between her thighs, I tucked her head under my arms & looked her right in the eyes... They had me captivated, they were misty & beamed with content & pleasure. This made me VERY excited as I leant in to kiss her again, grabbing her hair in my hands & pulling her hard into me.... My cock slipped inside her.... AAAHHH... The ease & comfort I felt with her was far beyond anything I had experienced for many a year. She invited my cock in, & I wasn’t going to hesitate. She had me now, and I didn’t even know it... All I knew was this moment... My hips rocked back & forth, my cock & her pussy synchronized to our beating hearts... Her arms enveloping me totally, making sure I could not move anywhere except in & out of her now beautifully wet & slippery pussy... We kissed, we fucked, & by god, I hope we were making love, because I knew then that I was falling for Angel, harder & faster than I thought was possible to do. As our bodies heated up, & our rhythm took on a life of it’s own I knew I was not going to be able to withhold my orgasm, & I told her as much... We had discussed this previously too. If forced to hold back my first orgasm, I usually am unable to cum for the rest of the day or night... So My Angel encouraged me to let it go, & I did... The orgasm rising deep from within me, my hips pumping harder & faster as she held me tighter & tighter... I reached the pinnacle & screamed out with the pleasure coursing through my body, my cock deep inside her flower, let loose it’s warm lava & filled her with all the sticky wetness it could. She pulled me into again as I lay inside her, my cock aching at the joy of her, her pussy clenching & squeezing me till all I had was inside her... I fell into her arms, spent for the moment, but happy in the knowledge that it was only the start of the weekend & that the plan had only just begun. The Presentation As we unfolded ourselves from the lovers embrace, skins gleaming with a light film of perspiration, hearts beating still faster than usual, we fell into a ‘not needed to be whispered’ contentment. Just two people starting out on a journey of discovery, learning about each other & more importantly, learning something about ourselves as individuals. As dusk set in, the night was young, and there was still much to do. Including dinner... Don’t ask me what we did for dinner, because in all honesty, I was so nervous about presenting her with what I believed to be the solution, & preventative method of her running for the hills & never speaking to me again, that I don’t remember much of what we did up until the time I actually gave her the solution. We were getting settled in with each other now, & of course the discussion meekly turned toward the ‘taboo’ of anal sex. Her experience in the past had been mildly pleasant, yet at some point painful from what I could understand. Also, I believe that her fear of the ‘mess’ was always on her mind, which led her to not really enjoy the experience as much as she should have. “Well”, I said, “here is the best solution that I could come up with”, and at this, I produced for her use, an enema. Bought at a pharmacy for home use, I had found in the past that this was the best way to prevent any mess. So there we were... She looked at me a bit shyly, yet wryly... “Thank you” She said, & leaned over to kiss me & bury her head in my shoulder. “You don’t know how much it means to me that you took the time & made the effort to make this experience as easy as possible” What’s a man to do you know?!? The best he can I reckon. It felt good, really good knowing that she still wanted to go ahead with it. It also felt very relieving that my nervousness was now gone. I could feel the excitement coursing through her very being! She was hot as ever going to be at the prospect of my McCocky-Cock sliding into her primed ass hole. Hot at the prospect of not needing to be worried about anything except really letting go & enjoying what was to come.... No rush however, one can never rush someone you love into doing anything. As far as I was concerned, she didn’t even have to use the enema that weekend. The most important thing was that she knew in her heart & soul that I wanted only the best for her, & that I would anything for her to achieve the utmost pleasure. Just her knowing this was actually enough for me... ( not that I didn’t want to fuck her in ALL her tender holes, but that was always a decision left up to her. ) We read the instructions together, & I really felt it to be a moment of bonding between us. It was special, & looking back, I realize that that particular moment was probably more special than any amount of orgasms we could bestow upon each other. It was a moment which made for the following saying to be absolutely true ‘The greatest gift you can give someone is time’. Going through the intimacy of what we were about to perform physically, paved the way for more intimate experiences down the line. I’m not only talking about physical intimacy, but soul intimacy. The kind which binds one person to another. The kind which has the potential to destroy a persons mind & heart when the time comes for that bond to be broken. You might think it odd that reading the instructions on how to use an enema may be the doorway to creating this bond, but here’s the truth of it. ‘It matters not about the destination as much as it matters about the journey, in other words, it does not matter how one gets there, as long one gets there’ I had not got there yet, but I knew somewhere in the depths of my closed off, fearful self, that the journey was under way. The question was yet not to be asked nor answered, but would I allow it to be what it was supposed to be... Time would tell is all I knew... Making My Angel Feel Good So off she went to do what she needed to do..... “Babe, please don’t rush. Just take your time & get to know the process of your body in this situation” I said. She smiled at me on her way up the stairs & I could see how much she was enjoying the moment... The thoughts racing her mind making her body tingle with delight. Hopefully she was as erotically stirred as I was! Funny thing about indulging in what society has deemed to be taboo, it makes one feel ALIVE! Every sense heightened by the thought of it. The mind often screaming at us not to do it, yet the soul says... Fuck the mind, fuck the ‘rules’, Experience it all! Isn’t that why the soul has chosen to live a life on this planet? To experience what it means to be human? Of course it is! The constraints of the mind are what keep us from accepting that it is okay to be who you are. It is the constraints of the mind that keep us from living this life to our fullest potential... This is the message I had always tried to convey to My Angel... Let us do whatever it is we feel we want to do babe... No judgement from either side, & we will love each other through these experiences we choose to have. Which is why I thought it best not to rush her while she made her way to the bedroom to prepare. Nothing worse than feeling like the person who is waiting for you is waiting impatiently... So I put on some music & let her be. Lying on the couch, getting lost in my own thoughts, going within myself to stem my own excitement of what the night might hold. Thoughts of tomorrow morning already flooding my mind... Bloody ego, just can’t stay in the present! Always has to make life difficult in a life that doesn’t even exist yet. Have to quell these thoughts of tomorrow morning. NOW! Shut those down & the next one creeps in... “What if my cock isn’t big enough or worse, too big for her? Good god man! Pull yourself together!!!” A few deep breaths to calm myself & realize once again the truth of the situation. “ She’s here, in your house, naked in the shower now & making herself ready for you. Not for some other guy who might not be as understanding or patient as you are. Not at home alone caught up in her own thoughts and insecurities, but here, in your house, and soon going to be in your bed where she will let you make her ‘yours’, and you will let her make you ‘hers’.” She turns the taps off, she is nearly ready, nearly mind you... no rush now... Just her and her alone. By the time I heard her footsteps coming down the passage toward the stairs I could barely contain myself. Dressed in her favourite nightie, she leaned on the wall at the top of the stairs & simply beckoned me to come to her with her index finger & said “I’m ready for you mister” Whew! What A woman! How much sexier can it possibly get?!? I do not believe it can! Placing my hand in hers, she led to the bedroom, candle already lit, the window open enough to let the cool air in, the smell of this woman dulling my senses. The art of anal sex was about to be put to the test, & all I could do was hope above all hopes that I was up to the task. Swinging me around and onto my back on the bed, she came up from my knees towards my already aching cock. Taking me in her mouth with the most gentle touch any woman could touch upon. I let out a deep groan of pleasure as her lips wrapped around my shaft, her mouth warm & inviting my now hard cock into her. With the cool Spring time breeze whisperings songs of intention over our skin, we were heading for an explosion of untold, unimagined & unadulterated pleasures. Giving & taking from each other as much as we had to give & take. All but for one purpose in my mind... ‘To let go for each other & Love’. Yes, we were fucking, but for me at least, it had already become more than just that. And in all honesty, that scared the shit out of me! But there is no time any more to indulge in my own fears & reservations, only time now was for her & her alone. So as she took a breath & looked up at from between my legs, I pulled her up toward me & rolled over on top of her. Kissing her deeply, the taste of my cock & pre-cum fresh on her lips, mingling with our saliva’s, I began to float into another world. Retracting from her gorgeous mouth, I shifted my attention to her breasts. Beautiful! Big. Round and just the most mesmerising site that my world had touched in a long long time. Tracing my mouth all over them both, kissing & licking her nipples till they hardened between my lips. I sauntered lower toward her magnificent tummy line, gently lifting her nightie in the places I wanted to touch lips on skin. Next thing I knew she was stopping me from exposing her soft skin to my touch, pulling the nightie back down to cover her self up.... I just moved on further down to between her thighs, kissing & licking gently as if a butterfly’s wings were prancing over her body. Now was not the time to speak, wonder or have any thoughts about her insecurities. No... Now was the time to accept her just the way she was, with all her insecurities & strengths alike. As I reached the spot where her womanhood began to expose itself to my mouth, her legs opened widely, inviting my face in to drink my fill & suck from her the very essence of what made her a woman. I had no reserve from this point on, & took her clit in between my teeth & gently started nibbling on it. It sprung out at me & instantly filled the gap I made for it. With her clit clamped gently between my teeth, I used my tongue as a paddle, up & down, left to right, in circular motions, any which way I could until I heard her moans rising from her throat, until I felt her hips gently rocking back & forth with writhing pleasure. Her blood pressure rising did nothing more than spur me on as I brought a hand up to enter her flower with two of of my fingers, at the same time my mouth still caressing her clit. I lapped at her pussy, taking in it’s sweet nectar & entering into a world of euphoria & Valhalla. My god! The taste of her, the feel of her, the smell of her deepest treasured gift was all mine to drink in, to indulge in & to explore to the very depths of the ocean & space beyond! At the same time I was hers, hers to do with what she pleased, & hers to allow me to to do to her whatever her mind & heart would let me. My fingers gently milking her for that sweet honey which my heart so desired, I removed one finger & slipped inside her anus.... Her whimper of surprise & delight melting into one fluid feeling left her tender & exposed. I looked up at her to make sure she was comfortable, & could see the excitement, but also uncertainty in her face as she looked back at me. Slowly I started to move my hand in & out of her pussy & ass at the same time. All oiled up & ready for the joy of it all. She bucked her hips hard & I could feel as she allowed the process to unfold. JOY! Releasing my hand from her ecstatic grip, I came up on my knees just as she asked me if it all clean & safe. Looking down at my hand, then at her holes, I could barely speak the words because my intense sense of being lost in her had already taken hold, but I did. “You are beautiful My Angel, just perfect in every way” The look of relief on her face let me know that she was ready for my cock to enter her most private of privates. So I flipped her on her tummy, pulled her up onto all fours, & rammed my cock into her pussy with primal animalism! She screamed out in delight as I pushed in hard & as deeply as I could go, her adoringly curvaceous bum merging with my hips, & I fucked her like I knew she needed me to fuck her. Next thing I knew, I had slipped of her dripping wet pussy & automatically slid into her now primed & ready anus. The jolt of electricity expelled from her being was like nothing I had ever felt before, & I knew right there & then that my cock was exactly the right size for her. I pushed her flat onto her tummy, my cock buried in her ass, & gripped her around the neck as I plunged in & out her. She turned her head toward me for a kiss, & I saw in her eyes an absoluteness of pleasure & ecstasy. I kissed her as best I could, while trying not to hurt her neck, yet at the same making sure that I was giving her what her body had craved for all this time. The anal trust factor had been secured, & our lives had taken on a new course as far as it was concerned. We made love in as much as we fucked each other like animals, her getting so lost in the pleasure of this taboo that sshe indeed did not know where she was or what was really happening, except open to the knowledge that she was in a world never before visited, & a place to be remembered for future visits... I had gotten to the point of no return & voiced loudly that I was about to explode! She folded her arms behind her, grabbing my bum & pulling me as deep as I could go inside her so as to pump my seed as deep inside her ass as it go... Fuuuuuuck! I let go, she screamed at the idea of my hot cum pumping into her, & I growled with a lions growl as it did so. Pushed onto the bed by my weight, I stayed inside her as I felt her ass muscles milking me of every last drop. Kissing her sweaty neck tenderly as my orgasm subside, jolts of electricity coursing through my body every few seconds, I knew in my deepest of deepest subconscious that I might just have crossed from being just a lover to a crazed lunatic who had fallen ‘in love’. This feeling of course was not based purely on the sexual aspect, but on the notion that this, so far was the most healthy relationship I had had for, well, forever really. I lay on top of her, whispering words I cannot recall into her ear, adorning her neck & shoulders with kisses of tenderness & respect. We had done it, we had broken the barrier, & we were one in this moment. me hers, & she mine.... The End