It's hot, my body being caressed but the hot, welcoming rays of the sun.. Sunbathing has never been something for me, but when i heard that you are back, i knew i had to grin and bare it. I had to welcome you home in the only way I knew how..

The thought of you walking out onto the terrace and seeing me lay there with with my - almost doesn't cover the essentails- white string bikini...

I can just imagine when you lay your eyes on my scantily clad figure.. Your eyes widen, together with the instant growth of your bulge in your pants...

She is with you, but you can't seem to draw your eyes away from me...

As she talks, you are looking over her shoulder. At me.

I feel your eyes undress me... Our minds marrying in the fantasy of what could be, but shouldn't... I look over my brown tanned shoulder and catch a glimps of you. I smile. You are trying so hard to concentrate on the converation at hand, failing dismally. I chuckle lightly, knowing what is actually going thru your mind..

You excuse yourself and make your way to the upstairs bathroom.. I know you so well. It's not the first and surely not the last time this happens..

I step seductively into the water, my hands hovering just above...

I turn toward the house... i see you watching me through the window, your arm shaking vigorously...

One hand on your member and the other against the wall...

You can see me watching you as you are watching me, wishing we could share the moment intimately instead...

I know it's coming... You throw your head back.. Your body jerks as you explode into your hand...

I can feel the same pulsation in my love bud, something i can only describe as an ache.. A fullness that needs release... I close my eyes and imagine all that could be but shouldn't.

I look up. You are not there. As I lower my eyes, you are back on the terrace. With her.

You smile at me as you raise your glass.

I turn away, feeling yet again like the dirty slut she always told me I am. Maybe she is right.

Tonight you will come and find me when she is sleeping, you will tell me how much I mean to you, how much you love me and how you are divising a plan for us to be together.

And tonight I will believe you once again... Tonight I will not be the dirty slut.

I will be YOUR dirty slut.

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