Just a confession I need to share; we have this dynamic where I get upset over something. He tries to calm me, but I can't help myself and before I know it, I've said something truly hurtful to him.

Then he pulls away and becomes quite. It infuriates me to the point where I throw shit or even worse. Mostly, he just takes it. I rage foe hours and he stays calm playing video games.

In the evening I feel regret and all I want is to have him. He knows he can have me too. He knows if he demands it, I will give him all of me as repentance.

It starts in txts. He'll ask something or tell me what to do. I still feel angry but I submit. It had happened so many times by now, it is always the way in which we settle things.

He hate fucks me. Violently and with malicious intent. It often hurts but my body still responds to it. He uses many fingers or his entire hand. He forcefully rams his fingers into my now wet and open cunt. He fucks me fast so that I cum lots and quickly. He shoves his cock in me while rubbing my cum all over my whore face. He loves humiliating me as punishment. The worse I behaved, the harder I get it.

The previous time, he pinned me up against the living room wall. I was wearing a tank top only. He pulled it up over my tits and pushed his fist against the wall, strangling me with my top. My tits were pushed out while he started to slap me tits hard. Really fucking hard. When I'd cry he'd shove his hand in my cunt. Then again pulled out and slapped me hard across my stomach and rib cage. He told me to open my legs and squat down a bit and hit me in my cunt hard, several times. I can't remember what happened after.

I just did it again. We had a disagreement over something and I said a ton of horrible shit. This fight actually started over 2 days ago, and I've said so many horible things. I know he is laying there, thinking about what he is going to do to me tonight. I do know that I'm having my panties fucked into my cunt for sure. No idea what else he'll do to me. I hope he doesn't fuck my face. That is hardest for me.

You know when you want it, but at the same time you're scared.